*Part 1: God and Infertility is part of a series I will be publishing over the coming year. Feel free to come along and join the conversation. As parts are published, they will be linked on one post to be seen in chronological order:
God and Adoption: The Series
God and Infertility
The Modern Adoption Gospel tells young, unwed, and poor mothers that God intends the children in their wombs for others. This is what I was told 20 years ago as a pregnant teenager. It is a practice still in use today amongst many evangelicals and within the adoption community (see previous post: Kansas and the Gospel of Adoption).
As a pregnant teenager, I was told that my daughter was meant to be a blessing for another family. This was an answer to the circumstance of my pregnancy that generated many more questions over the next 2 decades than I ever anticipated.
I’ve wondered for so many years how it came to be that God placed my daughter in the wrong womb? Or was it the right womb at the wrong time? Or was it the right womb, but His intentions were that she be raised by total strangers to me? Was I not included in the “God adopted us all” narrative?
Dare I say, what kind of incompetent God do we worship who employs baby-redistribution to clean up His mistakes? Was I only a function to God- an incubator, a warm body, a vessel- while others were His children? Was losing my daughter for a lifetime my penance? Do other sins require us to lose our children for a lifetime? Were the adoptive parents of my daughter “called” to adopt her? Why weren’t they called to help keep us together? Why wasn’t anyone called to help keep us together?
Was God powerless over my pregnancy? Is God powerless over which wombs babies end up in? Does His sovereignty only begin after the birth of a child? How do we know that we’re redistributing babies to the right homes? Are the “called” guided to the right baby? What if we’re screwing this all up? What if this has nothing to do with God at all? What if we’re separating families that God meant for His purpose? What if my daughter and I were victims of a machine?
Oh, the Rabbit Hole of Adoption.
So, I have to separate the wheat from the chaff. I have to find truth after all these years. I’m going back to the basics. Back to the beginning. I don’t know where I will end up. My faith is shaky as it is.
I look forward to the next year of searching out the scriptures. Perhaps, my faith will grow stronger. Perhaps, I will walk away from it altogether.
At this point, I just want the truth. No more confusion. No more chaos.
Does God have power over the womb?
It seems that He does.
If God is intentional about which wombs He places children, should the Church be less cavalier and more solemn about separating babies from their mothers?
Scriptures about God and the womb:
1 Samuel 1: 5-6
“But to Hannah he gave a double portion because he loved her, and the Lord had closed her womb. 6 Because the Lord had closed Hannah’s womb, her rival kept provoking her in order to irritate her.”
“so she said to Abram, “The Lord has kept me from having children. Go, sleep with my slave; perhaps I can build a family through her.”
“Isaac prayed to the Lord on behalf of his wife, because she was childless. The Lord answered his prayer, and his wife Rebekah became pregnant.”
Rachel and Leah
“When the Lord saw that Leah was hated, he opened her womb, but Rachel was barren.”
“Then God remembered Rachel, and God listened to her and opened her womb.”
“But the angel said to him: “Do not be afraid, Zechariah; your prayer has been heard. Your wife Elizabeth will bear you a son, and you are to call him John.”
“But the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary; you have found favor with God. 31 You will conceive and give birth to a son, and you are to call him Jesus.”
“So Boaz took Ruth and she became his wife. When he made love to her, the LORD enabled her to conceive, and she gave birth to a son.”
Continue to Part 2.